Headaches after another try I can’t handle one more failure now It hurts so much just to be alive My mistakes they took me to the ground My body aches after another fight With myself I can’t win this time So tired of feeling alone No where to go no one to tell the truth I'm done with not being clean So done messing up everything Done promising to try again Can someone make me a new brain? It’s hard to fight this battle on my own Nobody gets why I do it on repeat, no, no, no, no Nobody gets it not even me Wish I could go back, but I can't, no To when the old me was happier My hands shake I feel dead inside No, no, no Somebody help me I can’t ease my mind No, no, no Another battle I have lost Gotta have faith, to overcome Demons won’t calm down if I keep feeding them on, on and on Why do I do it? I don't know I don't know I don't know I'm so done with not being clean Wish this weight would leave me and go away I'm so done with not being clean Another try and I’ll finally feel free